Fitting in

Be YOU , Be WEIRD , Be UNIQUE .

Going to high-school and college were probably one of the most excruciating phases of my life .The only growth I ever knew was physical , well because that's the more significant one . But at this point in my life  , I discovered something called as ' mental growth and change' . To be a better version of myself with every passing minute is what makes me drive.

             I have had so many questions in my head , thoughts that I can't comprehend. I saw my friends talking and laughing about stuff I had no clue about and seriously it's maddening how pathetic and stupid I'd feel when I am around and couldn't get my head around any of it. Let alone having the guts to ask what it meant, cause I didn't want them to think I was this idiot who lives under a rock.

            

            There came a time when I realised it's okay if you feel that way , everybody has their own struggles to deal with. To be happy with myself, with what I do , with what I think , with the knowledge I possess , with the so-called little wisdom I have , I came to this conclusion that no matter how much you try to do or acquire in this world , there will always be something that you'll probably miss and that's totally fine , you can't really impress everyone ! YOU ARE NOT PIZZA !

             

            If there is anything I have learned in my life, it's that no matter what , we still have that space , the ability to CHANGE OUR MINDSET , for better !. Back when I was in fifteen, I didn't want to change at all and the sad part is that I thought I never would. It scared to death to think of how different of a person I would be when I grew up , the thought nauseated me . But the beauty of change and moving on in life has definitely grown on me . 

             

            I thank god each and every day for the person I am today, not in a million years would I want to change any fine detail or situation that I ever came across. Every bit of what I faced has made me the person I am today, and it brings a smile on my face to think that I wouldn't want to change it for the world . 

               

            Everyday I wake up with a new perspective of my life, of my purpose in this life and everyday I fall in love with myself a little more . Accepting myself , my mind and my soul for better or worse and letting go off anything that doesn't bring me happiness or joy .